Tuesday, Dec. 17, 2002 - 13:18
hmmmmm...last night i went out shopping by myself to get Christmas stuff. the mall was packed so it took 12 years longer than it should have to get what i needed. now i need to wrap what few presents i can. lately things have been very bi-polar for me in life, last night being the high point. i was sooooooooooooo depressed and had no clue why. most importantly, i didn't want to be alone, but at the same time felt so worthless i couldn't really tell anyone i needed someone and i couldn't bring christine along with me shopping since she was the reason i was going out in the first place. i think my depression issues are starting to play a larger role in life, but oh well. things overall are good so i don't know what's goin on....well i do but don't feel like getting into it right now. things and feelings that shouldn't repeat always do over and over and over again. c'est la vie.
i'm going to go now cuz i could keep going and going and going and all of it would really go nowhere.
